The Tale of the Gypsy Wanderer

Once upon a time, there was a gypsy named Ambrosia.

Ambrosia traveled far and wide to find her true self.  She ran to escape the demands of her daily life. On the road, she encountered fellow travelers. These travelers offered sage advice and friendship.

Feeling more understood than ever before, Ambrosia began to walk. Her journey became an adventure rather than an escape.

After a few short months, Ambrosia found herself. She turned around and walked home without any trepidation. Only with excitement.

Hello there. I used to be Ambrosia. Thanks to you (yes, even you lurking in the corner) I have found myself. There is no need to hide behind the mask I created.

I am Amber. I am a mom. A happy mom.

I recently won a battle with depression. A victory that God and you helped me achieve.

What does this victory mean?

It means that I am Amber again. I am that kind, silly girl I used to be. I am able to laugh and giggle with the Queen. I can smile and coo with Manly. I have rediscovered the funny side of life.

Strangely, I am grateful for my bout with depression. I have gained an understanding and appreciation for those who struggle with it day in and day out. I can console friends who struggle.

I have learned the importance of ups and downs in everyday life. I am not talking about the convulated ups and downs as seen in the prism of a depressed perspective, but the normal ups and downs experienced in living life.

I have days when  I feel completely knocked down followed by days of incomprehesible joy. I have silly days and sad days. Each of these are necessary. How could I see the joy if I didn’t have the sorrow? How could I appreciate happiness if I didn’t feel blue? It is the natural flow of living life.

Ladies (and men), thank you for aiding me in my journey.

I still have much to overcome. Days where I will feel desolate, disconsolate, melancholy, and heavyhearted.

I also have much to look forward to. Days of triumphs, bliss, felicity, and euphoria.

Through my continuous journey, I will seek your help again. The important thing is that I have learned to help myself.

Hello. I am no longer Ambrosia. I am Amber. It is nice to meet you, all of you.

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11 responses to “The Tale of the Gypsy Wanderer

  1. Nicki

    Here’s a big hug for you, Amber!!!

  2. I’m so happy that you’re on the other side of the chasm, and that you can appreciate all the things that happened to help you get there.

    Welcome back to yourself!

  3. I remember that feeling so well! And the gratitude…oh the gratitude! Not just for overcoming, but for having had something to overcome – something that links you to so many others. Breeds empathy of a very useful sort.

    Welcome back to yourself!

  4. Well, hello there, Amber. What a pleasure to meet you.

    Wishing you sustained happiness, higher highs, and higher lows.

    xoxo

  5. And we see you. We all see you. And we are here. We are all here. For highs and lows and every point in between. Thank you, Amber, for bringing yourself back home.

  6. Yea, I get to officially call you Amber! And welcome back from the depression. I remember it well. Remembering it is what keeps me connecting and exercising and just about everything! It does keep me human, remembering that sadness that I felt at a moment of great joy, holding my new baby.

  7. Amber,
    I love your writing, I love your honesty, and I love your willingness to share. Many others are not so brave.
    By the way, thanks for the nice comment on my blog!

  8. I’m so glad you’ve found yourself. Depression is a hard path, but you’re right, it is a path that leads to a lot of self discovery. It is nice to see you here, Amber (although I liked Ambrosia a lot, too).

  9. From the nectar of the gods—hard for mortals to come by—to a solid gem… a lovely homecoming.

  10. Wonderful to meet you, Amber 🙂 Your attitude is delightful. Your perspective, real. And your writing, wonderful. Your gratefulness for even the struggle, refreshing.

    Look forward to an eternity of conversations silly and serious…