Ben and I are horrible about celebrating holidays. We would completely forget about them if it weren’t for commercials and blogs.
It isn’t that we don’t appreciate the reasons behind them–although I still don’t understand the purpose behind Halloween–it’s that we are busy. Also, we are very limited financially.
I’m not complaining about our situation, because I feel we are truly blessed, I am only explaining. We live in a cozy apartment, eat delicious foods, have reliable transportation, have insurance, have jobs. There is no reason to complain.
However, when it comes to the holidays there is a certain amount of pressure. Buy this, buy that, decorate! For a person who still hasn’t placed photographs around the apartment we have lived in for over a year, it’s a bit overwhelming. Compare, compare, compare. I feel myself giving excuses to people and myself.
At least I used to.
Now, I realize that this is how Ben and I are. We work hard to keep our kids healthy and happy while seeing after their spiritual, mental, and physical needs. We don’t really think about the extra things–like gifts or decorations on holidays–because the struggle is intense.
At the same time, our home is our haven. Sure, we rarely have holiday decorations on the walls or doors, but we do have each other. And the love is palpable.
It’s in the clean laundry piled on the couch.
The dishes in the sink.
The toys strewn across the floor.
The boxes of diapers and wipes stacked behind the television.
The well worn couches.
Our lives may be a bit messy and we might be forgetful about traditional holiday things, but we sure as heck love each other.
I don’t know when our lives will be less messy. We will soon enter a new chapter of our lives: Medical school. It will be hard. So very hard. We are lucky, though, because we have each other.
Maybe once we are settled we will celebrate holidays differently. For now, we try to celebrate them daily, (at least the religious ones) and remember the most important thing: Family.