While I had the best intentions of running a week’s worth of Top Ten in 2011 posts, my body told me to “stop that,” and rest.
So I have.
On Tuesday, I went to my ultrasound appointment and saw the most amazing thing: my developing embryo’s heart beat. It was strong and loud. I am happy.
The ultrasound also indicated just how far along I am: 6 weeks. With my usual track record of horrible pregnancy-induced sickness, I stick to the couch and to boring foods like instant mashed potatoes with saltine crackers. I no longer crave coffee, chocolate, or anything else delicious. Instead, I shun all things healthy, unhealthy, and seemingly delicious by reaching for the most bland foods my irritated pregnant body wishes to consume. My husband gets tongue lashings every day for ridiculous things. He patiently (and not so patiently) endures them and quickly forgives my outbursts. Thank God.
Between exhaustion and sickness, I do have brief interludes of productivity. During these moments, I managed to complete my master’s application. I am beyond excited to have this done and will now impatiently wait on an acceptance or rejection letter.
Right now, I am resting. Life will resume its outrageously busy pace next week, when I start back at work again, so I am taking advantage of this brief holiday by putting my feet up and watching countless hours of TV. And sleeping. I can’t get enough sleep. (Except for at night, when my body decides it wants to act uncomfortable and send me dry heaving to the bathroom multiple times, but I seem to do okay during the day.)
I am not sure what shifted with this pregnancy. Whether it’s the attitude of do-or-die (regarding the fetus) or the, hell what could possibly go wrong that hasn’t in previous pregnancies, line of thinking that has left me happily embracing each moment and living in the day. I don’t consider names, how I will deliver the baby, or what gender it is. Instead, I am content with a heart beat, the increasing nausea/dry heaving, and the muscle pain. I am satisfied with each day that my body holds onto the pregnancy and feel confident that things will be okay.
As computer screens increase the nausea and dizziness, I will be going on a brief hiatus. If and when I have a break from the sickness, I will return. But for now, consider this my good-bye until next year.
I hope all of you had a wonderful holiday season and enjoy your New Year’s festivities.